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Lauren [userpic]

Start me off and watch me go, I'll be running circles around you sooner than you know...

May 5th, 2005 (05:07 pm)
current mood: determined
current song: The Caesars - Jerk It Out

Have you ever felt like you needed to do something crazy just to break out of your shell? Have you ever felt like doing the "wrong" thing because it feels so right? Have you ever thought about disregarding what you should do and just taking a risk? I'm standing at that point right now and I know it's monumental. Where I go from here could change my life. I will most likely look like a failure or a dropout, but I will know the truth - that walking away from the safe option was the bravest thing I've ever done. I'm done slaving away for a little piece of paper I may never use. I'm through doing what people think is the smart thing. I want the time to find myself. I want to feel like I'm doing something useful and meaningful. I want to learn to be creative. I want to take the road less taken because it's only be taking risks that we get anywhere substantial. I want to teach myself. I want to make money. I want to learn to play music. I want freedom. I want independence. I want change. I want to travel. I want to help people less fortunate. I want to grow. I want to break free. I want to become the person I want to be. Here's to a new life.

Lauren [userpic]

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May 4th, 2005 (08:06 am)

This journal is private. Sorry. I'm sure my existential crisis would have been real interesting to you all but I'm way too insecure to share. When I figure out who I am and what I'm doing here, I'll let you all know.

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